Forever On Hold

How far can a mistake float you away? Simple thinking which seems perfect, but end up in something ugly that make us afraid to take a glimpse at it ever again.


One boy. One cute Mat Salleh look-alike boy with perfect smile, fullest eyes, big hands, robust chest and most irresistibly; sweet talk. One girl. One innocent girl with strong stance who just have nothing but her personality.


Have you ever been told to care less? Do what you like? Dance in the middle of the road? Kissing at the Pasar Malam? Just, be yourself. Be what yourself dreamt. Don't bother people, whoever.


Love seems so beautiful as pictured by Shakespeare. No, love is beautiful. Lust is a cheap dress that drown out colours and ruins all the fabrics that cumulated around it. Lust is magnificent and painful at the same time. Only true love can filter these two mixtures.


"I didn't memorize the lyrics, miss." Complaint a cute boy in an unusual outfit for a dinner party-- Baju Melayu. Seemed so lost in the hectic night.


"Ha? You what? You guys are next, right? Oh please please make some sense! We just have few more minutes!" Appealed the girl in charge for the performance that night. Began to panic with her 'surveillance'. Having to handle a big events by herself for the first time wasn't easy.


"Do you have pen?" The boy gave his innocent look. Irresistible and can't-be-yelled-of expression. Put the girl panic in hold for a while.


"Can you give me your autograph?" 


"What?" This is what this boy want a pen for? My autograph? Murmured the girl silently. So she thought the boy want to write the song lyrics he was about to sing. Without much question, the busy girl spend some of her time to sign the boy's notebook. She didn't realize she was smiling upon signing the autograph. Something unexplainable tickled her stomach, make her heart felt warm and cool at the same time.


"And, please also write your name, Facebook name, and phone number." Whispered the boy with his innocent face that he master of.


Flirt is basically an activity that will not leave effect on anyone, unless the characters involved are some kind of magic. The relationship between these two different gender wasn't stop there, that night.

The girl didn't leave her phone number because she was genuinely thought, a boy should find any possible way to get what he want if he really desired.

Short text from the boy welcomed a new relationship of these two people. New relationship that was fun, care-free, cool, romantic and blind.

They were so happy in their own world. From watching Titanic in Laptop at the parking lot, to warm and tight hug on the bed. They matched the car plate number to their resemblance, kidnap each other from the busy and pressuring life, sweet escape to somewhere only they know, sleep in the car when they had no money to rent a room.

Close and intimate wasn't a symbol of love. This is what the girl didn't understand.

So they were really close, spend each night share laughter together, but the boy never say those three words. Always avoid the topic. Leave everything hanging.

The

Girl

Die

In

Waiting

And

Still

No

Answer

As close as they seemed, as confuse as the girl concern,

Ain'W

Crappy ppy~

Wish all they asked in exam are like:


I can’t get to sleep without: saying goodnight to Hafiz
If I were a doll, the accessories packaged with me would be: a boy (a cute one). noww, who wanna buy me?! ;p
I have an irrational fear of: snake. even image or cartoon 
At my grandparents house I usually eat: ikan masak kicap. yumm! wan is the best cook. (okay, ibu pun) =.=
When I was born I weighed: should i ask my mum?
I am most opposed to: watak Indonesia yang extra extra baik. Urgh gimme a break. (-_-)
I like to stalk: girls with strong words and personalities, and style. 
I am too old to be: have Papa praise me
I find the thought of childbirth: is so innocent, beyond reality. 
Next door to my house is: a religious family, which is why Ibu so care if i jemur kain pakai spender je. =.=
My feet are: size 6.
My preferred style of jeans are: trouser. I think i look tall in them :D but never get a perfect one
I know how to cook: omelets? and RBTM cheese! :D Roti Bakar Telur Manis cheese. what im proud of. :D 
I am annoyed at: people that always portrait themselves as innocent. blah. its all at the outside.  
Men should always: able to spice conversation.
Women should never: copy others status/photo and claim it as theirs. Loser.
The scariest sea creature is: Piranha? They ate sexy chic, come on.

The world is over populated with: kids that want to be tumblr-like. (me included)

I recently broke: a glass, that i used to use it as case

I last cried because: nightmare. I super super super hate dream! 

I would like to be in an advertisement for: some skin care products. By the time i get the offer, its mean..um its mean, i'm dreaming. =_+

My favorite shoes are: red velvet flats, 3 inch wedges and maroon crocs. (wait, the crocs aren't mine.tapi tak kisah lah, i wear it all the time dah jadi as mine dah pun)

My mothers’ greatest fear is: losing us.

When I think of Full House: What Full House? The movie or restaurant? :O

I Say This You Say That: I am super-paranoid with something i'm so scared about. Don't even say the 'if'.

Whats your middle name? Ain. I think you should put this Q on top.

How big is your bed? Queen.

What are you listening to right now? Whirling sound of my old PC

What are the last 4 digits in your cellphone number? 0169991625 

What was the last thing you ate? Nasik Lemak, with kicap (first time able.the Nasik Lemak taste like carbon)

Last person you hugged? Yamin? Ke Hafiz?

What books are you reading? Pretty Little Liars (re-read). and Perfect Chemistry by Simone Elkeles.

Piercings? Did it (four times!) and lose it. 

Favorite Movie? 500 days of summer. 

What were you doing before filling this out? Going to Mak Cik Mizan's house to choose my ring. Ibu buy it for me, sebab sale and murah gilew. =.= though i don't know how long i can keep it

Dogs or cats? Cats. <3

Have you ever loved someone? Yes. Deeply 

ARE YOU 18? Thanks for compliment me. But no. I'm 19. But well, you know, people keep saying that i look more like 16. xD

WHAT IS THE WALLPAPER ON YOUR CELLPHONE? Hafiz's licence photo. <3

DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LAST NIGHT? Very much. This is why i woke up really unusual early this morning. 

FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS MORNING? Hate my dream!

WHAT DO YOU HAVE HANDY AT YOUR BEDSIDE? My wardrobe? No its not handy. Kena bangun jugak capai.

:D

tiba tiba angel ni dah ada depan mata saya, bila saya first time buka mata.

ibu wouldn't probably read this. so kay, bye. it doesn't gv effect if i write anything sweat. i mean, sweet (T.T). hee k k, tetapkan niat ain! takpayah nak menunjuk sangat. =.=

day before mother's day:
pagi: "YA ALLAH ain takhantar adik lagi? dah lambat dah niiiiii! teacher dah dua tiga telefon!" "haha ain main main je laa. ain dah hantar dah. dah lama hantar(padahal baru 5minit hantar)" "pasal belajar jangan main main dengan ibu! ishh tak tenang ibu. k lah, bye." =.=

night: "awak pergi mana! tok kata tak sampai sampai lagi rumah. dah malam ni! ya allah" "ain bawak adik keluar, nak beli hadiah untuk ibu" "risau ibu. tok dah bebel bebel. cepat sikit balik! takpayah lah pergi rumah tok, kalau lewat sangat. awak jangan balik lepas pukul 11." :(

midnight: "hehh kenapa ni kenapa ni? haa?" tiba tiba bangun tidur, rambut terpacak pacak macam drakulla sebab papa baru lepas urut kepala ibu pening. "takde apa, ibu. takde apa. pergi lah tidur tuuu." "ishhhh pening lah ibu macam ni! taktenang ibu tidur." buat muka nak menangis sebab stress, pening kepala adik gaduh tumbuk tumbuk menangis, si kakak sulung lagi mengapikan. datang balik, "hadiah terbaik anak anak ibu, cukup lah buat ibu tenang. ni baik ambik je pisau, bunuh ibu" :[

ibu si kakak sulung

don't tell me, 'ibu ain tu baik sangat. lembut je' if you don't know how she looks when she's going red (or is it, if you don't know how naughty and besar kepala her anak anak are? =.=). 

but ppl are right when they say all the good things bout ibu. she is lembut, baik, soft-spoken, sporting, best and hot sampai duck cakap 'eh cikma tu hot gila ah.silap ada ik nazeri.kalau tak dah lama ain jadi anak tiri koi' wtf =..=

no one is really grateful unless you are the daughter of this woman. she is such an angel, and is a big idol for me. i hate to say i love you and things. it's just not me. it's you. =.= you always come up with the romantic and sweet ideas. for papa's birthday present even papa don't even know his own birthday, for adik adik's birthday party, for me when i said 'nak choc ibuu' and she eventually make it on purpose when i going back home. i should learn her quality on this! hee

she is a bestfriend of mine, indeed! she knew all my secrets, what i hate, and when i tell lie. she knew me well enough, and i could say, better than me. (she said, ain memang macam tu.selalu salahkan oranglain. i was, hey entah bila masa entah.ain takpernah pun! >.< when aza said the same thing, only then.) she knew i hate dicipline but she keep advice me. she knew that i hate when my stuffs are being touched, so she collected all my stuffs, even the sikat rongak and plastic ice cream, in one plastic, because she knew i will not mengamuk if the tin air gas hafiz gave me masa sekolah dulu dulu kena buang. she knew i never called myself 'aku' or 'koi' (temerloh=.=) and when i started talking 'aku-kau', she asked me and told me i was naive and sweet when i bahasakan diri 'ain'. she knew i love losing ppl, and when i love ppl, i will love him seriously, like serious seriouslyyy, so she support me and gv me advices in my love life.

she is also, a good advisor and stylist. she will always come up with solutions. always. she will thinks of everything in details. including, how i suppose to angkat kain when hujan. ambik bakul dulu ka, belari dulu ka. she also willing to cover me up when i wanted to meet hafiz and not following them balik kampung. she will give reason to papa, and in the back, she also told me to jaga diri, jangan ajak hafiz masuk rumah sebab ibu dengan papa takde, minum dkt sini sini je.tapi jangan dekat kedai tu lah.ada kawan papa ramai. hee i love you, ibu. and yea, she always give me opinion if i want to do my hair. eherm, and also money. hee i never use my own money for hair. and keep remind me, jangan buat rambut leper sangat, nanti muka bulat. (T.T)

HAHH IBU. SUCH AN ANGEL.

i want to request you as my mother in my second's life and afterlife,

 boleh? :) i love you.

i need something Romantic to do!

 THIS IS SOO SWEET!

Wish I could be able to do All for him. :))

 

IDEA # 1

If your partner is going away for a few days, tell her that you are worried about
her so you have organized a bodyguard to look after her. Then give her a
small teddy bear.

 

IDEA # 2

Buy a packet of glow in the dark stars and stick the stars on the roof above
your bed to spell out a message such as "I Love You" When the lights go
down, your message will be revealed!

 

IDEA # 3

On a special occasion, buy your partner eleven real red roses and one

artificial red rose. Place the artificial rose in the center of the bouquet.

Attach a card that says:

“I will love you until the last rose fades.”

 

IDEA # 4

Buy the domain name of your partner's name if it is available for example
www.TanyaJohnston.com. Create a web page containing a romantic poem
and a picture of a rose. When your partner is surfing the web, casually ask
whether she has ever checked to see whether her domain name is taken. Let
her type it in to discover her page.

There are moooore actually. This is just 4%. I have read this year ago. But only accomplish some. Oh moon, hope i can sincerely make you smile. ;)

Source,

101 Romantic Idea

TheRomantic.com

101 Romantic Ideas

IDEA # 12

If your partner has to work late, take a lunch box and fill it with some of her

favorite things such as chocolates, herbal tea, cookies, a small teddy bear.

Next, get a piece of paper and write

"Michelle's Late Night Survival Pack"

Draw a big red cross below this and stick the paper to the top of the box. Tell

your partner to open the box when things get really tough.

IDEA # 13

If you are walking by a park, visit the swings and give your partner a ride.

This will often bring back happy memories from her childhood.

IDEA # 14

Leave a long stem rose where your partner will find it with a note on it saying:

"Thank you for coming into my life."

IDEA # 15

If your partner is starting a new job, buy a copy of "The Sound Of Music"
sound track. Tape the song, "I Have Confidence" onto a tape and add your
own message at the end of the song saying,

"Good Luck honey, I have confidence in you."

Give the tape to your partner to play on the way to work in the car.

HAHA.. i dont know they keep this secret from meeeee!

Hafiz Harun practices belly dance (haha..bee, i dont know always did this!ohh..cakap orang pandai) :p

Emma Shaari has fake hair (i knew it already!she's spends hours just on her hair.duhh) -,-

Serra As wants to kill me (sometime, its hard to be famous and gorgeous.take me as an example) :p

Shahirah Jaafar has pimples in her back and like to sing Justin Bieber's song in toilet (err,really. well, it's okay, babe. i have some, too.HAHA.but,i didnt sang that kid's song,puhliss.HAHA) :*

Julidawatie Ismail just pissed in her pants (syg,its okay.you dont need to be malu with me.we have the SAME prob.uhuhh..kantoi) >,<

Aimie Mimie Jeffree has an imaginary boyfriend. (its perfectly normal.HELLO..) =,=

Faiz Mustafar is stucked in the toilet (well,somehow i hope this is for real.HAHA) :D

HAHA.. this is soooo funny. FB application told me these. dont be mad at me, ppl. sayang korang! muah muahh muahhhh gedik! haha

natural face by fulltime admire

i watch these photo again and again and again. it's not the model yang ada rupa perghhh-cun-sial. but it's just simply attracted by the natural it stored there. they keep this photo natural, makeup-less, and they don't force an act in any of these. cool kann :D

this is only for his collection, maybe.haha.no,kidding

Hahh..Prince, bila awak nak beli Dslr awak? Nanti boleh tak  suka tak sudi tak awak capture every pose, every angle, every laugh, every hand gesture, everyThing that i do? Hee~ I'm self-promote myself, here. -,-' HAHA.. stop it, ain. Have some price, be more Natural yourself. >,<

Berani Kiss? (Second Kiss)

Berani Kiss?

Bab 2

           

Giana terpana memandang pemuda di hadapannya itu. Masih tidak percaya dengan apa yang dialaminya sebentar tadi.

            Lelaki handsome berpakaian kemeja kemas putih dan seluar jeans cream itu baru sahaja MENCIUMnya.

            Dan bukan itu sahaja, lelaki itu turut mengatakan tiga patah perkataan.

            You. Are. Qualified.

            Kejap kejap kejap. You are qualified?

            “Boleh jalan tak?” Mengeletar seluruh badan Giana apabila suara lelaki itu menyentuh fikirannya.

            “Apa?” Giana yang masih terpinga-pinga cuba mencari kekuatan untuk mengimbangi semula dunia realitinya.

            “Nak I dukung ke? Dari tadi tercegat dekat situ, kalau takkan masuk, I tutup semula pintu.”

            Oh right. Baru dia ingat tujuan asalnya ke sini. Giana ligat mengangkat beg pakaiannya dan segera masuk ke dalam ‘istana’ itu. Dia hanya mengekori lelaki itu dari belakang, sambil memerhati susuk tubuh sasa lelaki itu dari belakang.

            “Nah..ni baju kerja.” Lelaki itu mencampak helaian baju uniform kepada Giana. Dengan teruja, dia mengibas baju kerjanya itu.

            “Apa?” Gaun putih-biru atas lutut yang masih dipegang Giana, dikajinya teliti. Kerja apa agaknya yang berpakaian begini?

            “Kalau tak nak, boleh keluar and suruh bapak you bayar balik bidadari I.” tegas lelaki itu, seakan tahu apa yang bermain di fikiran Giana. Gadis comel berdiri di hadapannya itu mengalih pandangannya daripada baju uniform itu kepadanya.

            Bidadari? Oh yea. Kereta sial tu?

            “Um boleh saya tau, department mana saya kerja?” Suara Giana keluar tersekat-sekat. Dia masih memegang bajunya itu, sambil memandang tetap muka lelaki itu.

            “De-department?” Gelak sindir lelaki itu. “Oh yes. Department. Department penjagaan luaran dan dalaman.”

            Panjagaan luaran dan dalaman? Pekerjaan bidang apa tu? Tak pulak Giana dengar sebelum ini. Mungkin dia ditugaskan untuk menjaga penyanyi atau pelakon atau model di syarikatnya. Fikir Giana sedetik.

            Matanya yang dipenuhi persoalan kemudian secara automatik terbeliak. Setelah beberapa minit baru Giana tersedar bahawa sebentar tadi, lelaki yang melemparkan baju kepadanya ini telah mencium bibirnya!

            Seakan suatu kuasa telah menggesa gadis itu, Giana menghampiri lelaki itu. Hanya satu inci tubuh mereka bercanggah. Giana terpaksa menjengket kaki untuk menyamakan aras mukanya dengan ‘lawannya’ itu.

            Pang! Penampar singgah di pipi bersih lelaki itu.

            “Ahh..what the,?” Jeritnya kuat. Tangannnya meraba-raba pipi yang baru sahaja ditampar gadis berani itu.

            “Itu untuk cara awak menyambut tetamu,” Balas Giana spontan.

* * *

Boy mengusap pipinya perlahan. Kesan merah hasil tamparan budak baru itu masih lagi tidak berkurangan.

            Berani. Dengus hatinya.

            Tidak pernah sebelum ini, dia dilayan begini dalam hidupnya. Kalau setakat kiss, perempuan mana yang kisah? Zaman sekarang, benda macam tu dah tak diambil peduli. Hendak-hendak pulak dalam Bandar pergaulan bebas seperti ini. Kiss itu umpama salam. Fikir Boy.

            Apatah lagi dirinya yang selalu sahaja berjaya menjuarai hati wanita. Boy nyata tidak pernah tewas dalam mencuri hati kaum Hawa. Dengan berbekalkan muka mixed-blood yang innocent dan nakal, Boy mampu menakluki hati sesiapa sahaja. Selama ini dia yakin bahawa dia tidak akan gagal meruntun hati wanita. Tetapi tidak lagi, untuk detik ini.

            Namun begitu dia mendapati dirinya tersenyum, seraya mengingati insiden tadi. Memang salah dirinya jugak, tiba-tiba nak buli perempuan tu. Bisik hatinya.

            Boy bangun perlahan dari katil empuknya. Dia merenung jauh keluar tingkap. Cuba menyingkau pita tape memorinya, ketika budak baru itu datang.

            Memang, seawal langkah pertama gadis itu menjejak kaki ke dalam perkarangan rumah itu lagi, Boy sudah tertarik dengannya. Gayanya yang innocent itu telah mencuri hati lelakinya.

            Boy menarik nafas panjang. Cuba membuang segala perasaan yang bermain di dalam fikirannya. Namun semakin matanya dipejam, semakin kuat wajah mulus gadis itu mengintainya. Wajahnya yang terkejut apabila Boy mencium bibirnya. Reaksinya yang terpinga-pinga apabila Boy melepaskan ciuman itu. Dan air mukanya yang tegas dan bermaruah apabila dengan berani, dia menampar Boy.

            Akhirnya Boy membuka matanya. Ini tak boleh jadi. Perempuan macam ni mesti dikasi pengajaraan!